Monday, December 14, 2009

Benten the sea goddess

I was hoping to write a real post today, but again, I spent most of the day sleeping. I even slept through most of the Kings at Canucks game, which really sucks because it seemed like a good game, from the parts I caught in between snoozing on the couch. When I tried to force myself to stay awake, I would go cross-eyed and fall asleep anyway. I haven't been vomiting, but I am nauseous enough that it is hard to eat, and I am extremely stuffy. I'm sneezing almost non-stop.

I did finally get my anti-nausea medicine tonight. It was 10:30 pm before I decided to brave the pharmacy. I stocked up on Gatorade and sinus medicine. Then I drove around for a while because I didn't want to go home. I am getting lonely and bored spending so much time alone sick. Maybe I should ask my friends, who have been so great about offering to come take care of me, to actually come take care of me. I just know if I see people I'll feel like I should entertain them, and I am so not entertaining right now. I am snotty, sleepy, and my butt is shrinking. This happens when I'm too sick to eat- my butt disappears. My pants are falling off me. Thank god for drawstrings.

It's so sad that TV seems to become less entertaining when I'm sick. I watched a "So You Think You Can Dance" marathon while snoozing and balancing my checkbook this afternoon, and I can honestly say that balancing my checkbook was more stimulating. I just watched "How I Met You Mother", and even though that show is normally amusing, I think I only laughed once. It was about smoking, and I did think how amazing it is that I stopped craving cigarettes after the last one I smoked. It wasn't that long ago, maybe 3 months. It just felt unnatural to smoke, and I felt so sick during and afterward, that I think I'm really off it for good. It used to feel so satisfying, and now it feels like the opposite of that. I started smoking when I was 16, and I've quit lots of times, sometimes for years. I still craved it, though, but not anymore. That seems pretty amazing, that I will never smoke again. Yay. I guess people can change and grow out of things.

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